Fri, 25 Aug 2006 11:44:25 EST -- Volume One
I could ramble on about my inane life before my embrace, but that would really dissuade any readers that I may actually have, from continuing to do so. My tale must begin when I met my would be sire, even then, so many years ago teenagers' hopes and feelings were much the same as they are today. I wanted, nay I needed to be apart of the social crowd, I wasn't from royalty or anything but we weren't sheep herders either, my family was just a touch on the outskirts of the social scene, relatively new to the area. As such I had to work extra hard to impress the socialites, only then would they allow me acceptance. I was always physically gifted so it came rather easy for me to impress the opposite sex, to which I was very excited of the possibilities, needless to say this did not engender any goodwill from my male counterparts. As such I engaged or rather was guided into confrontations from time to time.

One particular encounter will forever be etched into my mind, it was the night that I met my sire. When I first laid eyes on this woman I was struck not by her beauty, but by this disquieting nature that she had, it was very strange but there seemed like something was wrong with her, but I certainly couldn't place it with my eyes. This just led me closer to her, I was entranced by the imperfection as well as the perfect allure with which she carried herself, as if she had fallen from grace somehow. As I got closer and closer I could feel my blood boiling with the desire to learn more about this girl, she was clearly not like all of the prima donnas that I had spent most of my time entertaining. When I finally approached her I was abruptly intercepted by a man, I was clearly his superior in both size and strength, yet there he stood within my path to destiny, mocking me with a slight grin. I asked him to move, and he silently shook his head, while that woman cracked ever so slight a smile, certainly not a reassuring smile by any means. As I attempted to out maneuver the man, he deftly moved to block my progress, and was making me increasingly angry. A man can only take so much mockery, before he is likely to snap. And snap I did, I picked up the puny man and heaved him out of my way, only to find that with inhuman agility and speed he again stood preventing my passage. The battle ensued, however, I was quick to find that looks can certainly be deceiving. This man seemed to shrug off my most powerful blows while landing a flurry of punches that I had no chance to stop, he possessed greater speed, strength and endurance than any man I had fought before or would ever fight again. Naturally I received the beating of my lifetime. I put up a good fight – at least that is what I keep telling myself – but there was no way that I could defeat a denizen of the night, being such a puny, insignificant mortal.

Normally a fight would end when a combatant goes limp, but I was soon to find that a battle with the undead just begins, for now I was fighting for my life as he was sucking down every last drop of my life blood. You might believe that it would feel horrible or at the least a bit unnerving to have you blood sucked out of your neck, but quite the contrary it was, dare I say it, a pleasant release especially from the beating with which I just suffered. Unfortunately for me he must have gratuitously indulged himself, for it seems I never did awaken ...
Wed, 16 Aug 2006 15:23:49 EST -- And so it begins ...
Let me introduce myself, I am The Jester. I wasn't always this way, I wasn't always a monster. I grew up like any of you, I had a happy childhood with loving parents, a NORMAL life. That all changed when I entered the world of darkness, the world in which I now live.

I have not seen the sun shine in over 400 years. To be honest with you I have forgotten how old I really am, it is not as if I have forgotten my birthday, due to an addled mind. The real crux of the problem is that I am no longer human, and as such I have severed all ties with my old life, I have chosen to embrace this lifestyle. In order to do that you must forget who you once were, what you once valued, including everything that you believed was right and true in this world. If you do not do this, if you try to hold on to an vestige of your former lifestyle you will surely lose whatever sanity you still maintain.

Sanity is really what I would like to talk about first, what is sanity? There really has to be some levels of sanity, we all can't be either crazy or sane, and to what degree would you have to go before you are considered insane? What if you added animals to the equation? Are there crazy animals? There are certainly reported cases of crazed animals, but they are usually branded diseased, as if some bacteria or virus must have caused the beast to attack, could it have simply been that the animal had a mental illness, a psychopathic dog, much like a serial killer. The thrust of this argument is that if you expand your definition to not merely include humans, then the scale of sanity gets much wider. Is a puma regarded as a mental case if it attacks and destroys a gazelle? Of course not, it would be positively to the contrary. Therefore it would seem that operating outside your species' accepted norms, would lead you down the road to insanity. A punk kid that pierces every piece of his body and dyes his hair neon green, is more insane than the working father of two that wears jeans and a t-shirt and slaves away at his job for 40 hours a week. Now broaden your horizons a touch and consider a small subset of humans that really are no longer human, they are the kindred – vampires. Within their culture, feeding on the blood of others is not just the norm, but without it their existence would be impossible. Can they really be faulted, judged within the human scope, as they are clearly on the outside looking in? Well I am hear to say it doesn't matter what you think, I am going to do it anyways, and fuck you for judging me, you just may be next.

This is not a cautionary tale of the perils of losing your morality nor your sanity. This is my stage to tell you and anyone that will listen, my story, the story of how I became the most powerful vampire in Buffalo. And it starts now ...

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